Me Myself

Open Facebook, see if he/she’s online, and then just leave the page open in case he/she messages first, or in case I figure out something clever to say so I can message him/her. But for the most part, it’s just so that I can look at his/her icon and think, “I wish I could just message him/her RIGHT NOW and say everything I want to, even though I know that if he/she’s logged into Facebook, it means he/she’d be distracted and only half-paying-attention. Will I bother him/her? Will they respond? Is he/she online? Do they know I am on? Will he/she initiate? Should I go for it? 

And today, apparently, seeing me online but not messaging him/her……. OMG he/she just messaged ME!!!  YAYYYY!!! 

Was I just playing Hard to Get without actually playing Hard to Get?

Everyday i wake up to this goal: Real Love. 

Real love is placing the needs of others before your own. It is making your problem, my problem. It is giving to another without any guarantee of getting anything back. It is giving others what they need, not what they deserve. Although love can create intense feelings, love is not a feeling. It is a choice, an action, a way of behaving, a commitment. Love is sacrificing for others.

I fold stars because it’s the only origami, that I’m good at. 

I fold stars because I am thinking of you. 

I fold stars because it makes me happy. 

I folds stars because I don’t want to think about the worries. 

I fold stars because sometimes the skies seem empty. 

I fold stars because it brings luck.

I fold stars because  it makes me feel girly. 

I fold stars because wishes will come true if I put my heart into it. 

I fold stars because it brings hope. 

I fold stars because those dreams becomes reality.  

I fold stars because each star is a new beginning. 

I fold stars because i like you! 

I fold stars because you’re special in my heart. 

I fold stars because I want you to be happy! 

I fold stars because… just because of you! 

She seemed to be moving at a steady pace, when suddenly, she stumbled. Her back end twisted and turned over, but her front end stayed in place. 
Struggling to continue her journey, she managed to straighten out her back end. And on she went toward her destination, when shortly after, she stumbled again. Continuing this routine, she finally made it across the patio. A dark shadow covered her as the sun went behind a cloud. 
She had not finished her journey. Where is she headed? Why has she stopped? 

Je ne suis pas prêt à s’envoler.

 Someone I truly admire once told me that she believes she is one to get a divorce. It upset me hearing those words. Recently, I learned that one out of two marriages ends up divorced. “Until death do us part?”, I guess this generation those words are almost meaningless. We speak them with no intent of honoring them.

“Until death do us part”
I don’t get it, tho! How could you say that and take it back? How could you make a commitment and break it, for such a silly reason? “We fell out of love.” NO! When your married, you’re family, and you DO NOT leave your family. Siblings fight, parents fight, husband and wife obviously fight! When you marry, it is because you love each other unconditionally, and you are going to be together forever. Honour your commitments. Divorce is wrong (in most cases).

Marriage is a lifelong commitment to completing one’s life journey together with another. This journey is not finished until one spouse dies. When I agree to complete that journey with you, that agreement is not conditional on you having an ideal personality. Marriage very much entails accepting another’s imperfections.

That being said, I don’t in any way want to further injure the wound of anyone who has ever had to ensure the hurt and pain of divorce. Every individual situation and marriage is different with varying circumstances. I just hope I will never have to endure that type of pain. 

Think I’ve been watching too much, Love Rain.

To Dream or Not to Dream? To Dream. Because it leads me in the right direction and helps me find my own passions. With these dreams, I get to begin living as I believe I was meant for. I know it’s my own choice in everything I do. Therefore I am gonna be this big dreamer and attempt my ultimate “big dreams”

Nowadays I feel as if these dreams are slowly creeping into reality. And I am starting to get scared. Do I really have the courage to pursue them? I hope I do. In order for them to to come true, I’ve got to get started and take action. Strong will power and strong determination! Set my goals, focus on it, take action, work hard, push my limits and most importanty pray. Every single effort I do will never lead to futility. Each small step will bring me a little closer.

And I don’t want to give up!I know giving up is easy, when dreams seem far away, and life is full of obstacles. But no matter what the challenge, some Faith will get me through it. I continuously tell myself: Never quit believing in your dreams. I know achieving a dream is not always easy. But when I do succeed, I know nothing will ever compare.

“If your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough.”  Are your dreams big?  

Anonymous asked: happiest moment this year?

i feel selfish, but honestly it would have to be this: 

For the first time, I went SCUBA DIVING! (and it was so scary!) I was located in the middle of the atlantic ocean!!! … 50 feet down below sea level! Never realized how dangerous this sport can be! If you breathe wrong or if go down too fast- one can easily DIE! Wanna hear something funny and stupid of me?? Okay… so I was down in the ocean with some of my family members and a few other strangers… and i was feeding dog food to a swarm of fishes (yes, dog food. don’t ask me why because i really don’t know) anyways, there i was with the ziplock bag with my index fingers pointing out- i have a strange theory that pointing fingers out is elegant and classy (now i realized it’s lame)… and BAM! suddenly a freaking fish takes a giant bite on my left index finger! I screamed underwater and my eyes bulges out of my goggles! Did I mention the fish is the size of my calf? Yeah! that big! So obviously anyone would go berserk! I immediately drop the ziplock and swim away from the tornado of fishes! I look at my finger and gushes of blood is coming out! More like clumps! (did you know when you’re under water, blood comes out in clumps?) I look both ways to see if anyone sees…Thankfully no one does… I didn’t want to be caught by the guide because i was afraid he would tell me to leave… So i clenched my hands in a fist trying to stop the blood from coming out. I continued swimming down the ocean for another hour, all the time i was thinking “what if a shark smells my blood? will i endanger everyone? will we die? but this is so much fun, i don’t wanna leave and waste my money! am i a bad person? oooh I’m gonna pretend to swim like a mermaid!” 

When I got back onto the dinky boat, i overheard another group of snorkelers that were down with us and said they saw a SHARK!!! The guide said that it’s rare a shark would come to this area… but he said, “thankfully no one go hurt.”

OMG! It was my blood!! I panicked and looked at my finger… it’s all my fault!! oops. If you know me well, you know I freak out very easily…and i think i was really scared when i was down in the ocean… and when i got out of the ocean and sitting on the boat, i had a migraine and felt really light headed. i don’t know if it was from sea sickness, or the salt water that i gulped, or perhaps the blood loss, or maybe it was just me panicking…. but i threw up! (ew i know) I get really scared when i throw up, because it feels like you are dying and you just start crying (or at least i do)… 

All in all….i think I’m scared of fishes now. But you know what? Scuba diving is totally worth it! I would do it again!!

Do you have 45 minutes to spare? Well if you do, or if you really just wanna see a sad love story… the first two episodes of “Love Rain” hits the spot! :’(